de peur de faire

This time I've come further than I ever thought possible;
I've crossed mountains and ocean without being sensible.
If I dreamed to be near you, well, I missed that by miles,
and this new world I've seen seems to keep me from your smile.
I know I once had dreams, once had ambitions that tried to thrive,
but just as I am scared to die, I am also to be alive.

Protruding from my heart are those things that I hold dear,
yet always there is something that quickly feeds my fears.
I want to be beside you, want to feel your breath on skin
(for it is only when I know you are real that Eros may begin).
Still, I know I once had dreams, once thought I had it all,
but just as I am scared to love, I am also scared to fall.